nika

i am boken, my heart feels smashed, he says he loves me, but he changed. i feel like crying and i am preparing to leave him befor it really started...

yay, i am in love...
everthing is fine right now, although my mobil phine bill is about 150€ and i don´t know how to pay for it i am happy cause i spend the money on a perfect guy.

we met at a party, had fun, had sex and now after two weeks he says he is falling in love with me and i wish he could be here with me right now, but unfortunately he lives in munich...such is life, but well, i want him . :D

beside that nothing special happened...

have a nice day

well, today was my exam and it sucked, most probably i failed, but well it doen´t matter anymore, it is over now.

i am looking forward to tmorrow, i am going out with a few friends, have some cocktails and forget this hell of a week.

on tuesday i hava an spplication date for a trainee in luxemburg, well i have no clue where the place is i have to go but with some luck and a friends help i might find it.

i am trying to quite smoking, haven´t smoked for 24 hours now....wow, hehe.

well, gn

well today is much better, although i had to get up at 5 a.m. and to work for 8 hours i am feeling fine, the exam tomorrow doesn´t bother me anymore, cause doesn´t matter if i fail or pass live goes on and somehow i will solve my probs. :)
i just realized that i already managed to solve some problems that really pissed me off or frustated me which is great as i usually turn out to get disappointed, melancholic and lose faith and hope pretty easy.
i am curious what the next weeks will turn out to be.

i am going to have some food now and will listen to music and study after that.

ok, this is my first entry...today was quite a bad day, headache, stress at university, i am seriuosly doubting that i will be once a successful lawyer, i am starting to hate civil law and regerting to have chosen this studies, but well, it is just a little crises and i will get over it.
i have an exam on thursday and my head feels just empty, but i really don´t feel like learning again,the last weeks was enough, so i will try to calm down and enjoy my evening.